wait, did i show you my specialty?

So maybe it's cause I don't sleep well, or some other shit, but i've been blacking out like a bitch lately. It's always an awkward feeling waking up not knowing what the hell you did the night before. I often think like what if i was so drunk one time i robbed a bank or some shit and completely forgot about it. Like saw that shit on the news saying "Ian Bangs is wanted for robbing a bank and shooting three people" and had no clue. Maybe one day it'll happen. Maybe not. You know what I fucking hate? Little shits at parties who think they're some tough guy and always try to starts fights. Parties are supposed to be fun, so why not just have some? Instead these guys choose to act like an asshole and make me wanna knock their teeth out. Back the blacking out thing, I guess I really don't care. Some people talk shit about drinking and how it's so stupid. Listen, I'm 23, I'm out there having the best time I can until I'm married with kids and working some bullshit job I hate for the rest of my life. So I'm guessing I got another 4 or 5 years in me till I settle down so just get used to it. You think I wanna die and look back knowing my youth sucked balls cause all I did was watch movies and look bored and pissed off at parties I shouldn't even be at in the first place? Fuck no. I wanna look back and say I played so many shows got fucked out of my head did lots of dumb shit had sex smoked too many cigarettes danced till my legs are numb pissed on something i wasn't supposed to knocked some pricks teeth out yelled stupid shit at people hit shit on the street with my car stole something awkwardly weird from a late night diner hated cops made people dance made people laugh made people cry spent too much money at the bar smoked too much weed ate too much drove fast pissed off frat boys and sorority girls and broke a lot of stuff that didn't belong to me.

that's what the fuck i wanna say.

-ian